i didnt believe either that i bought this but i really meant to start reading it soon
or at least pity the two of them that had been sitting there for a while and start watching or
for the long weekend, i could had gone for my personal getaway.
neither have a finish my work for the weekend.
--- but instead the whole day i went from one party to another party. the first serve scotch-(muf)fin and the latter serve steamboat. both provided liquor with a loads of conversations and laughters. i had a blast. so i will save all those brilliant ideas on top for another day.
"I tried very hard to be the perfect girl but he doesnt seem impress at all. i think the fact that i do not need to impress you allow me to really be myself" what happens in vegas
that is probably one of the most frequently ask question, "why do God allow good ppl to die?" this is a bit long but i think there are good stories from the bible. the pages of history that can probably give us a good answer of that question.
1. why do innocent baby die? 'At about this time Jeroboam's son Abijah came down sick. Jeroboam said to the wife. "Do something.... Make a visit to him (prophet) and he'll tell you what's going on with our boy." Ahijah (prophet) heard her come through the door and said, "... I've got bad news for you. Go and deliver this message I received firsthand from God, the God of Israel, to Jeroboam: I raised you up from obscurity and made you the leader of my people Israel. I ripped the kingdom from the hands of David's family and gave it to you, but you weren't at all like my servant David who did what my I told him and lived from his undivided heart, pleasing me. Instead you've set a new record in works of evil by making alien gods––tin gods! Pushing me aside and turning your back––you've made me mighty angry. ... Go on home––the minute you step foot in town, the boy will die. Everyone will come to his burial, mourning his death. He is the only one in Jeroboam's family who will get a decent burial; he's the only one from whom God, the God of Israel, has good word to say." ' 1 kings 14
my observation: could it be so that there will be one person in their lineage that can be spared from such sinful life.
2. why do good people die? 'Hezekiah put his whole trust in the God of Israel. There was no king quite like him, either before or after. He held fast to God––never loosened his grip––and God obeyed to letter everything God had commanded Moses. And God, for his part, held fast to him through all his adventures. Some time later Hezekiah became deathly sick. The prophet Isaiah son of Amoz paid him a visit and said, "put your affairs in order, you're about to die––you haven't long to live."
Hezekiah turned from Isaiah and faced God, praying: Remember, O God, who I am, what I've done! I've lived an honest life before you, My heart's been true and steady, I've lived to please you; lived for your approval.
And then tears flowed. Hezekiah wept.
Isaiah (the prophet), leaving, was not halfway acroos the courtyard when the word of God stopped him: "Go back and tell Hezekiah, prince of my people, "God's word Hezekiah! From God of your ancestor David: I've listened to your prayer and I've observed your tears. Im going to heal you. In three days you will walk on your own legs into The Temple of God. i've just added 15 years to your life..."
... shortly after this, Merodach-Baladan, the son of Baladan king of Babylon, having heard that the king was sick, sent a get-well card and gift to Hezekiah. Hezekiah was pleased and showed the messengers around the place––silver, gold, spices, aromatic oils, his stockpile of weapons––a guided tour of all his prized possessions. there wasnt a thing in his palace or kingdom that Hezekiah didnt show them.
... Then Isaiah spoke to Hezekiah, "Listen to what GOD has to say about this: The day is coming when everything you own and everything your ancestors have passed down to you, right down to the last cup and saucer, will be cleaned out of here––plundered and packed off to Babylon." ' 2 kings 18-20
my observation: if he had died, his children might have continue to lead the kingdom in peace. but his pride had opens doors for him to invite his enemies into his land.
3. why do bad people live? 'In God's judgement he (Manasseh) was a bad king––an evil king. He reintroduced all the moral rot and spiritual corruption that had been scoured from the country when God dispossessed the pagan nations in the favor of the children of Israel. He rebuilt all the sex-and-religion shrines that his father Hezekiah had torn down, and he built altars and phallic images for the sex god of Baal and sex goddess Asherah, exactly what Ahaz king of Israel had done. He worshiped the cosmic powers, taking orders from the constellations. He even built these pagan altars in The Temple of God, the very Jerusalem Temple dedicated exclusively by God's decree to God's Name. And he built shrines to the cosmic powers and placed them in both courtyards of The Temple of God. He burned his own son in a sacrificial offering. He practiced black magic and fortune-telling. He held seances and consulted spirits from the underworld. Much evil-–in God's judgement, a career of evil. And God was angry.
The final word of Manasseh was that he was an indiscriminate murderer. He drenched Jerusalem with the innocent blood of his victims. That's on top of all the sins in which he involved his people. As far as GOD was concerned, he'd turned them into a nation of sinners... Manasseh died and joined his ancestors. He was buried in the palace garden, the Garden of Uzza.' 2 kings 21
my observation: if he is so evil, why not destroy him. he died a normal death. in fact, he lived long enough to commit such a long list of sin. could it be... God was giving him a chance to repent.
--- this is just a humble observation of mine after reading the whole history of the kings of israel. and i cannot help but wonder if there is a reason im still alive today. we all are destine to die one day. it doesnt matter we die a peaceful or tragic death. more important is what we do with the days given to us.
i didnt write this at all because of the recent calamity. but maybe God was preparing me for it because i was dumb-strucked for a whole week after the 9eleven incident. like i always say, death does nothing to the dead for they are no longer here but hopefully it does something to those of us left behind.
God isn't late with his promise as some measure lateness. He is restraining himself on account of you, holding back the End because he doesnt want anyone lost. He's giving everyone space and time to change. 2 peter 3.8-9
cant stop playing this song. but gosh this video makes me cry... i want my next season of OTH.
--- i miss my man, nathan. to see nathan and haley scott make things right give me a glimpse that every relationship is workable. of course not without a cost.
"a lot of us like the idea of love but not many fight for it because true love is costly. the truth is most of us are not willing to give up so much of ourselves to exchange for that."
i was planning a beach getaway for a while now but had not come to it. then out of the blue my dad booked a family rejuvenating spa package over the weekend to damai laut, it is somewhere near pangkor (in case you dont know where that is).
after lunch facing the beach at the resort, we hit of to pangkor island.
my family
my little sis and me, try to keep that cool look despite the wind and wave.
my youngest sis is currently my most trusted photograher in the family
our first stop, to a nearby village to get some salted fish and tit bits
without further adieu, we hit the beach...
... to fulfill my dying desire to get some tan
but im too shy to post my frontal photos, you can have my back :)
then i need to do some beach-y thing, walk by the beach...
... and take some photos
leng and i made some effort to walk all the way to this hotel to revisit our "surf camp" youth camp site. the place that linked me up to yong howe, ps lawrence and ps seng lee, whom i believe significantly cause my moved to singapore and hook up with the the current fcbc bunch
we indulge ourself with a full body massage, i refuse to go until i make sure we have a 4-1 victory.
the next morning, we went to the poolside and make another attempt to get ourselves a better tan before we hit off to ipoh to get this famous... yim kok kai (salted chicken)
no kidding, we need to wait 40 minutes for it. cars just parked there to wait and nobody complain even a bit.
the boxes stacked all up and i seriously think they make good money. my family alone bought 7 boxes, in an hour i estimate they sell about 60 chickens (not forgetting, i dunno where the full van loads goes to. darn... im sure they make good money
my personal favourites, i think the resorts view are really great especially during sunset.
i know something was missing. i knew i wasnt quite a believer as i used to be. i was trying to pinpoint at church, ministry and my failure to pursue GOD. but i couldnt really put a finger to something. till we started the series "CAT AND DOG theology" in cell...
and it is mind blowing after the first session. this is a very, very short snipet of it.
1. i immediately started back my devotion, and had not stopped one night despite how late i go to bed. it is a unbelievable, it is GOD because i had tried numerous time the last two years to come back to doing regular devotion but had failed. something happen that night, i found back the REASON to do so. it is not what i can get out of it... it is just like the excitement of chasing after my TV series. i cant wait to see who HE is. i know i had read the bible but i had not read it that way before and now every page i run my finger through seems so fresh and interesting. 2. i slept late, i worked the whole day in PJ, i was stuck in a 1 1/2jam to usj to celebrate my friend's baby birthday, im late for cell. so it is really, really convenient to skip cell group (what i normally would do) plus home is so near. but instead i drove back all the way to ttdi, very close to where i came from earlier. though i was late, knowing what the first session to do me... i didnt want to miss out what the second lesson have to say. this desire and hunger was something i had not had for a very long time. believe me it is really GOD.
--- i have been a christian for 15 years, is it crazy for me to say i suddenly know what it means to be one. reading the bible is beginning to be interesting again. forgive me for blaming everything else but myself. becoming a believer was difficult because i have drifted away from the main character of the bible.
the discussion session is just too loaded, i think i need to get that book to make a deeper reflection to pursue back the very essence of what it means to be a believer again.
someone says i have shaky foundation. i think he is so so right. but i didnt know better.
'Emily, I'm flat broke. I don't have a job. I don't have a plan. And I know, I know I'm probably six years too late, but will you give me strike one back?' ashton kutcher as oliver martin in a lot like love
--- 6 years too late? sounds like definitely, maybe. sometimes we go round and round in circles because we dont exactly know what to tell this person. we are not sure it is love, but it is a lot like love.
over her dead body has nothing much to shout about except for these two really hot chics.
not boring, pretty entertaining but that's about it. to all the poor boy that has to put up with my desire of watching all these romance movies this season, thanks. i think we are done for the month. unless of course this movie is coming to the big screen this month.
good food with a few friends. im not suppose to take photos here, so this is the only one i got. one of the most memorable thing is probably the cute model look alike waiter... or is it the breast feeding mother hmm..
green tea cake, sun and moon jap's cafe at wheelock place
tofu cheese cake, sun and moon jap's cafe. the most expensive smallest piece of cake but it is really worth it. nicely done
not to forget a drink at clarke quay at my favourite spot
breakfast before i go, yummy. you can contact her if you are interested to make any orders
p.s. not in the photo pepper's lunch pepper beef with extra cheese and kembangan prawn noodles. yummy.
--- things you do over the weekend. small talk, meaningful time. refreshing.
"i am who i am. i am not who i-am-not. that makes me 'me'. to be frequently surrounded by ppl that remind you of who you-are-not reminds you that you are nobody. to be in a place where ppl see you as you are is beautiful because i get to be someone."
3. to plan a dream city where everything inside are what we always dream about. from school, supermarket to homes of our dream. very much inspired by my lego world
4. to own a studio apartment
5. to be holding the hand of someone i love lost somewhere around the world having a romantic getaway
--- impossible as it may sounds like but who knows going to japan was an impossible, planning a wedding was an impossible and this is impossible...
we are living in a world filled with miracles. (im touched by her life and songs)
of course besides me liking the part of seeing two very different ppl make their relationship works. im totally excited about seeing him half naked. the movie just reminded me, i love that body. gosh, it turns me on. im going to the gym to hunt.
she is finally engaged and getting married this year. after breaking up for the... let me see more than both my hands add up together. this pair of high school sweetheart is finally getting married. oh yah and i meant if each finger represents 10. so yup, they had broke up for like hundred over times. at the rate they went you just never thought they will make it. but when i saw them last year at another friend's wedding i think they had both grown. i assume they dont fight and break up like they used to. i think i saw this mutual understanding that they are sure now.
do you think it takes a 100 times for that girl to be confident that he is really in for it. not that we are proud of it but a girl always needs the assurance that the guy is still interested in them no matter how old there are. im not saying she did that for fun, i sincerely believe she doubted that it will work.
im dumbstruck though by what makes the guy stay that long. though most guy will at least not give up on you the first time as an answer to themselves that they are certain and an assurance to you. the second times you know are already pretty challenging. can you imagine by the 10th times? and come on the 67th times? the 98th times? after which break up do you actually decide to marry her? im all curious and work out by this phenomena. what makes him so sure that it is time?
"Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall i forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?" Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times."
sorry, im definitely using that out of context. but yah sometimes 7 times to us seems a lot to us but is it possible it is really not about the numbers. maybe 50 first dates will give us a good idea. perhaps it is not about how many times or how it can work out anymore. anyway you can never be certain that your spouse will never change, so your best bet is that you know your feelings for this person will never change.
could it be he just come to the realisation that she is just it and he will never quit pursuing her? for a moment i think that is the million dollar answer to that question to "whom shall i marry?". we need to stop asking who will commit to me but ask who will i commit myself to for the rest of my life. having said this, im assuming you are not looking for an ideal marriage but building an ideal marriage with someone that matters to you.
anyway im happy for them that they finally make it. at this stage im pretty sure there are both highly convince that there are no other they want to marry. life is about taking chances.
photos i took time and sweat to art direct and choose. photos that i cut and fit into these heavy-weird sizes ikea frames the very mid night before the wedding. putting it all together sounds like one of the longest progress.
DISCLAIMER: i did not art direct this set of photos. if im free i will upload the set i art directed. but i thought this cards are quite interesting.
menu
napkins deco that i designed. all 800 pieces of it put together by my family, bride's friends and hotel staff. we never thought it will come to an end.
im afraid i will not plan another wedding so i kiasu-ly have 2 weddings favours for alternate tables. on the cupcakes are customised names of the bride and groom.
i got the VIP table light from ikea too. want to guess how many trips i make to ikea :) you better like the mini gazebo on the stage too. that cost a bomb.
yah i would like to think my lights made a difference on the above two photos.
not to forget the little girl. that's pretty lovely.
--- i created or art directed all the above items but it is put together by the efforts of many. a bit long overdue. but need to post this up to show my hard work. these are just some pretty things from the first official wedding planning job of mine. if you like what i do, you can start paying me for it too hehehe
change gives us freshness and hope in our stagnant life. change can be our enemy when everything is going well for us.
"change" seems to be possible to fixed our mess up life. but many consider it a threat when others want to "change" us
well if it is possible i want some change but who can promise us that change will really fix things.
even if someone can promise us that. the sad part is change is much easier say then done.
as much as we want to change things, it doesnt necessary happen yet the ironic thing in life is: the very thing you want change changes not, and the very thing you dont want to change changes.
--- there are many ppl you can impress through your walk of life. but sadly, those you try very hard to impress they never seem to notice. mostly those closes to you, those who know you had not try hard enough, those who knows what you could be. those who knows you too well, those who has sometimes have way too much expectations on you.
the question: what do you want to change about the person you are so in love with now? my answer: if there is one thing, the one thing would be i want to change to love another person. because so often it is painful to be in love with someone that dont seems to have it all right. it is painful because you cannot find enough ground to love this person, yet you still love.
it is said ppl in love or that are loved has more motivation to change, maybe it is true because we who are alone might need more motivation to continue living another day in this lonely and couldnt-care-less-about-you world than anything. who bothers you had changed anyway.
ask a woman, they will help you to diagnose who your heart really belongs to. if you dont have any, ask a girl. anyone with a woman instinct, there are still better with it. at least they know what woman meant when they drop you signs which you are so ignorance about.
come to think about it, i should be thankful for him. in that short 3 months, he had actually enriched me with a lot of life lesson. i just couldn't deny the fact that he understands women more than any other men in the world. that i believe gives him the credentials to be a player, because you dont get to change the game unless you know fully how to play the game. in the middle of our second month, after i blasted out what i felt. he calmly grabbed my hand and says "sorry, i didnt know". he is the only guy i believe that ever ask me to throw my tantrum when i feel like it: "you need to express yourself when things happen and not explode a month later with accumulated stuff". it makes sense, keep short accounts.
it is unfair to give reasons of break up if whatever your reasons are something she hears for the first time in her entire time with you. fact is you dont have a relationship and you dont want a relationship. giving reasons for reasons sake is unfair because you never allow the other party room and time to change. thus it is unfair to make a judgement that this person will never change. it is not unhealthy to have differences since none of us are identical. part of a relationship is to communicate this thing and work it out anyway.
assuming that is really the day you need to end things, you never cut someone off until you give a reason. even the world of law never execute a criminal without substantial reason. yes even a criminal is given a chance to defense themselves. so as ugly as his reasons sounded, he gave it to me. knowing that i will not change my stand we moved on.
as much as there are a world of guys that prefers to suppress their feelings because women never understand. i hereby petition they learn to open up. first learn to open up to your friends it will help you in your future relationship. there is really no way to make a relationship last until people start relating. seemingly, there is no reason to want a long term relationship in the first place if they dont intend to do so long term.
i guess that is why i only date best friends. since it is not a norm for guys to open up, i can only tell when i get close enough to them. until of course they stop being your best friends...
--- "In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there’s really only one thing you can say (im sorry)."
"Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget." meredith, grey's
the problem with me is i cannot leave life as it is. i question. i challenge. i clarify. these had many times cause misunderstanding and hurts that i do not need. if only i learn to keep quiet.
127 hours between a rock and a hard place by aron ralston
is life worth living by ps chew weng chee (completed)
have a little faith by mitch albom (completed)
last on screen
1. the cove (***** am very inspired by the team that put this together, how much would you risk for a cause?)
2. battle los angeles (*** im never a big fan of alien movies but this is not too bad maybe because it is more like a war movie)
3. the fighter (***** the story, the cast are all superb. am very impressed with christian bale especially)
4. tron legacy (**** impressively pretty - im a designer what you expect, it is an amazing piece of work- the storyline is not too bad. seriously, i enjoyed it)
5. king's speech (** quite nice but havent reach the point that inspire me yet)
