Friday, October 13, 2006

one last cry

the most cruel things i had ever done to one of my ex
1. when i was angry, i did not answer his phone.
2. when he showed up at my door, i refused to go out.
3. when he attempted suicide "i told him a person who wants to die won't tell anyone".
4. when he was hospitalised i didn't visit.
5. when he ran off the hospital to see me, his hand was bleeding non-stop. i called his dad and sent him home.

He asked "why were you so cold to me? you didn't treat your other ex boyfriend like that."

It's true. maybe because i was too confident of his love for me. it will come a time he will realise i am not worth his love.

if you are once a victim, these might be the route you take next.
one who is hurt, guards himself from getting too serious in a relationship so that he will never be hurt so deeply.
one who is hurt, can rise up in the next relationship to be the one that hurt so that he will not be the victim again.
one who is hurt, might never want to be in a relationship again so that he will never even come near to pain.
one who is hurt, can choose not to do the same thing to another because he understand how painful that is.

that is why relationship is so complicated because there is no one way of doing things.
ppl said that my blog entries are pretty depressing. well that is really the condition of my life now. everything in life - the past, the recent, the now are teaching us something and that is what i had been blogging all these while. but i think i have enough of it. i won't be blogging till i have something good to talk about.


Anonymous said...

like i said before, i really enjoy reading your blog. it's sad to read about those cruel things. nevertheless, hope to see you continue blogging about your life, even though it is often depressing.

well.. what is good without bad,
what is light without darkness,
and, what is love without hate.

be yourself, stay happy.

Sam said...

One Last Cry.

Haha, that was suppose to be one of my titles.

Would this be the work of great or depressed minds?

Being cruel is necessary. Cause sometimes, being nice doesnt work.


Anonymous said...

We can't live 4ever depressing and mourning. We all gone through rough times but do we stay there 4ever and live in the past to moulded our mind and attitude. Anyway! stay blessed.

Anonymous said...

One Last Cry by Brian McKnight

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to my last cry


I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down...
To my last cry...


Jon Ng said...

Yen, U know I'm always a supporter.

chaiyen said...

this is not something i did to my ex bf recently. so don't worry, i am not so cruel now. so why these entry? well things around me trigger these memories. like i say the past and the now comes hand in hand to guide us. well... maybe too much of "lost". i am very reflective.

and yes alvin thanks for the lyric but i heard it from david tao, on the piano.

and the rest of you... thank you for your love and support.

Anonymous said...

:) Smile and Smile again :)

You are special and very talented in person your own way. Jesus Loves you

Take care

Anonymous said...

wow, what did he do to deserve such a treatment?

Anonymous said...

hey, haven't caught up on your blog for a while cuz been so busy... love your blogs... they've been insightful and even therapeutic for me :) i admire the freedom u display in your writing. hope u won't stop blogging.

blurred esh said...

*huggiez* for you.. ;o)

Anonymous said...

I like no.3 next time i will recommend to my friends. haha.. omg, you are such a expert in dealing with Ex-es. wahaha..

retiredpainter said...

Looking forward to your next post again. Hope it won't be long! :)

Anonymous said...

Hope you're doing well there, it's been a while since I've talked to you since.. :)

TheDugong said...

wah lau..
cant believe u did that le.. but i still love ya anyways!! mua hahahahahahah... yam cha soon..

Wei Li said...

juz cruel....