sacredness of a diary

i met up with my ex the other day.

he: is this your diary? (he snatches it from the table)
me: give it back to me! (i try to grab it back)
he: just let me read a little... (he fanatically go through the pages, barely read anything. thank God for my hideous and small handwriting)
me: (i finally successfully snatch it back)
he: so anyone read your diary before?
me: erm... yah my last ex bf (recalling the amount arguments we actually had just because i showed him my diary)
he: that is not fair... you never let me read
me: really? you never ask (actually i dont remember, it was like what 12 years ago)
he: i did, and you say it is your privacy. that is not fair, so not fair...

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i found that amusing, my ex bf is jealous of my ex bf. oh yah, and he is already married. so cute.

food for thought

colours

i can even form sentences using colour. listen properly ok.
when the phone ring *Green. Green*
i "pink" (pick) up the phone
and say "yellow" (hello)
"Blue" (Who) is this?
"White" (What) do you want?
You don't "purple-ly" (purposely) call me.
If you make me angry. I will not call you "black" (back).

love matters, jack neo productions.

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yah im doing digital video research and am very entertained by it as you can see hehe...

monster underneath your bed

seriously i love japanese reality show, so so funny and theraputic... beats those bitchy girls and backbiting in the those american reality shows. anyway found this while catching up my read on wongfu's blog. this reminds me of the NZ chase-by-the-zombie maze place sam keep saying he wants to go. seriously im not 8 anymore like those kid but im sure i will so freak out though i know they are not real.

faith of a child

every night samuel and sara will follow their mum to pray this prayer:
"i pray for daddy, mummy, samuel and sara. in jesus name. amen"

one brilliant night, sara added:
"i pray for daddy, mummy, samuel and sara... and baby oranges (she meant the small mandarin oranges she discovered during CNY). in jesus name. amen"

so samuel was inspired, he also added:
"i pray for daddy, mummy, samuel and sara... and cucumber and carrot. in jesus name. amen"

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the next morning, her grandma bought a box of baby oranges to their place without the knowledge of their prayers. apparently it is one of carrefour discounted item.

three lessons from prayers of the two-year-old:
1. you do not need to teach a child to ask, we are born self centred
2. prayer of a child can move mountains
3. some prayers are not answered because we do not know what we ask for. for eg: samuel came to my place for lunch, we gave him carrot and he doesnt want it. it was in his prayer prolly because it was the few name of food he knows.

make the logo bigger

im not sure if this video is a mockery to clients or designers. but i cannot stop laughing. the actual website video is here. but i think the youtube version loads better.

those designers out there must be darn stress to even come out with a song for it. hysterical.

maybe i should start playing the video at the background, when irritating client call. and make that song my call waiting music. wahahahahha....

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* insiders joke for designers and ppl who liase with ridiculous (no-design-sense) clients. had been doing loads of research for college work. what i didnt know is it can be so fun.

100 mess up years

the fine prints retype for your amusement
SPECIAL INSTRUCTIONS
If you are gay: this one could take a while. By all means have fun trying, but you may also want to consider adopting.
If you are underage: please check beforehand with parents or the person(s) who will be paying for the child's upbringing.
If you are single: have one night stand with pre-punctured condom, then seduce the individual into marrying you before the pregnancy is apparent. A gamble, but worth it.

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always love this guy works. not that i will do any of it but he is really brilliant in his copywriting to come out with 365 crazy ideas each year. now you can participate too. find a way to screw up your life every year heheheeh....

spring cleaning cont'

this spring cleaning thing is not funny. im on the roll. the night before i was going through my boxes of letters and cards, sorting that out alone kept me awake till 4am. i seriously am not going to start so late anymore. guess what i found out:

TOP 3 WITH THE MOST LETTERS:
1. ANNA RINA - we were seriously hardworking, we actually wrote in an average of two letters each month. this is one of her many letters, totally meaningless conversations but it lights up our days.

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yat yat hei yam cha = 'go mamak everyday', loves writing and reading in cantonese. just the fun of cracking what she meant and the tickle while reading it
kwok fu seng = aaron kwok, embarrassingly but true we were fans then. he has baby face and good body. plus he can sing and dance.
u-wei = yew wei was someone i have a crush on which ended up as my best friend then boyfriend in the next letter. one whose wedding, i went quite a distance to attend this year.
cheng kai = was my player ex boyfriend, opps name revealed. if anyone knows him, pls tell him im looking for him.

hope she doesnt kill me for blogging this. i guess you should be able to roughly figure out what i wrote to her in my letter before hers :)
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2. CELIA TIEW - we were quite busy, but still enough to pile up some letters. even more random matters but i guess the topic is consistent, boys.

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chan hiu dong = im not his fan but i guess then those were the celebrity we talk about
shin yee = also known as steph. yes we were gossiping about her hahaha.
hello kitty = if you remember the craze then. these are little details that makes you feel like you are almost there when life was so carefree and simple.
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3. ELAINE HO - she sent the most letters to me, so much so i dedicated a box for them. not only letters, she send me sea shells, books, photostat materials, newspaper cuttings and things you can never imagine come in an envelope. she is really faithful in doing so, seriously i no longer remember how to write. maybe, there are no guys and ppl to gossip about. she also wrote me about some guys but im almost sure she will kill me for publishing it here hahahahhah.... did i say some, opps.


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a result of reading some of those letters, i realised we only remember the happy moments in life.

soon the pain we will remember no more,
our anger will fade away,
the busyness cannot be felt.

what is left are beautiful sweet memories,
so why not make more of them.

p.s. was suppose to organise my photos next but i guess not tonight if not i will be sleeping at some weird ungodly hours again.

marriage

one of the many mass mail. quite tickled by this.

counterattack monday blues

they do have quite a few good short movie. i found myself sitting there the whole night playing one after another. not sure if im bias because he is super cute. this wedding presentation clip is really interesting too.

work hard, play hard

i told you i was still playing hard despite the busy schedules. in fact more crazy. show you some proof.
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"i think raymond (husband now) underestimated you girls, he said it is ok... they are church girls." said cheryl the bride-to-be, our victim of the night.

of course you have crazy chaiyen... but trust me, i was just participating. im not the mastermind of this whole thing. it is normally planned by the married women cause they can max their evil-ness and know that revenge will never come their way. ok dressed up, we are ready to go!


and we thought she is a shy girl, till she started approaching ppl. these are just some of the photos... the rest are not suitable for public viewing. but then besides our cameras there were loads of ppl with camera around that were snapping non stop. for a moment she felt like a celebrity.


she sold all of it, though it wasn't easy dealing with uncles that claim they dont' know how to use it, or young boy that shy away (he is probably on his first date with the girl hahaha) but overall ppl were very supportive. that is a surprise to me yes but we were smart to approach our target as well.


it is a tuesday night so it is pretty hard to find cute guys and moving on to laundry didnt really make it any better. so we just went for our ever cutest guy, marcus. (of course he was reluctant to let us shave him, all these look-conscious-guy... but we promised to shave with the cover on. so in a way we just mess him up). yes, that is how we reward him, the manager that buy us girls one round of shots.


looking for a guy to put lipstick on was tough. we were careful to approach better looking guys because we know what follows after. to which one told us "i will not do it, im divorce." like who cares... so unsporting weird fella. anyway we gave up with cute guys... so we just went for whoever was willing.


and tadahh we are done. too much laughters and we were really, really tired.


the wicked girls, these are my cell girls. this is what we do without the guys. with the guys... we eat. and i mean we eat really a lot.

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following this, we didn't let the guys have an easy way through the doors for the 'chip san leong'. im officially good with hens night and chip san leong. who is next muahahahaha s****!

more awake than most ppl

incident no1: starbucks
cy: iced venti latte to go.
cashier: sure iced venti latte. what size would you want your drink to be?
cy: *giggle*
cashier: sorry, iced venti latte right. sorry... sorry.

incident no2: over lunch
justin: where did you come from?
cy: went to hello office in damansara, then to amcorp mall to get something for my wedding client, here and later to bluinc to collect some stuff. argghhh it is another rainy day, super sleepy.
justin: yahh rainy day... where did you come from?
cy: *giggle* do you have alzheimer? hahaha...

incident no3: gym
cy: i lost my card, i want to renew it.
staff: sure, you need to pay rm15 for it. can have your membership card pls.
cy: *giggle* i lost my card.
staff: oh yahh, sorry i get you the form.

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am i tired or them? im very much awake even without sleep ok.

beauty is subjective

© All rights reserved. photograph by anna

since this photo provoked so many comments ever since i use it as my msn photo. i shall compile them to entertain all of you. anyway these comments might apply only when it is in the small msn frame.

nice
1. "wah so lenglui ah" monica
2 "wa, you look nice in this photo" shups, spore
3. "wah, why suddenly got stylish pic? nice!" edwin
4. "nice pic. very nice. have you ever thought of nude potrait? of course not sleazy type" finn, photographer (specialized on skin and baby potraits, that is why the question), spore
5. "this is one from the girls photo shoot? girls... but nice nice :)" ex bf no2

hot
6. "wa hot" dan
7. "oOO nice pic, you look sexy!" hydrolic

killer
8. "woa! is that you? wooohhooo. nice shot. what's the occasion? making yr ex regret? hahaha. tell yr friend i'm impress" my cousin, weimin photographer and videographer, spore
9. "wah nice pic, this pic a lot of guy willl die i think" ex bf no1

turnoff
10. "ur pic looks like ur naked (msn cropped the top and bottom of the photo to fit). stumbling me, pls change thx" keith

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these are comments from msn alone. not to mention my sis says "so bitchy, pls change". personally i think this photo looks really nice and i won't put it in friendster. i don't want to give false expectations. because close up, i don't think i look that good. credit goes to the photographer, who is able to make me look good.

i'm here to serve you

this will astound you and wake you girls for the morning. to prepare you guys for the day, on how to multitask and be helpful during your toilet break.


how about this? i had watched many soccer games but i had not seen a referee as graceful as him.


this will start your feet tapping and keep you awake through your graveyard hours.

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from FHM malaysia june 2007 fave clips. yah this is what i'm hired to do. to watch these clips before the rest of the malaysians.

is a small world after all

the kind of things i say when i am sleeping and dead tired:
1. sis: wake up, you call me to wake you up after half an hour
cy: yahh but now i beg and plead you not to fulfill that
2. sis: can you fetch me to school. pls... no one is at home
cy: *cry* you are crazy and cruel, don't let me sleep. got no compassion at all
3. (today) mum: there are constructor in the house doing some stuff. we are going out for lunch. can you make sure they don't go upstairs
cy: no, i'm sleeping. if they want to rob the house i will just let them but i will continue my sleep.

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mind you i'm saying all these with my eyes close. sometimes i don't even remember what i said. i was invited to passion yesterday for a free flow of calsberg. we have a budget of 1k to hit. apparently we cleared all the bottles from the bar before we even hit our target so we will continue next week after they stock up. i don't even know the person paying for the beers but i've come to know the world is a small world after all.

let me paint you the picture. i was there with dinesh my smsu high school friend that i got in touch again from friendster, he saw my photos on anna's flickr, one of my close girlfriend from seafield high school and my photos on cavin's blog whom i got to know through joan, my college friends. they work in the same office building. to close this loop. dinesh and cavin ot to know each other from photos site or blog, i can't remember. this is like just one of the many incidents, i wouldn't even want to try plotting the rest out. you can imagine the flashback from the lost series.

anyway i end the night talking about my pet subject with dinesh and his good friend jeremie, a year my senior from smsu high school -- close friends of hon kit and chan hui whom i used to walked to school with everyday. they gave me a new name call miss hope. they said in reality relationship is not about that.

all good things come in 3

3 good buys. brighten up your days during busy season like this:
1. due to the ever 'got problem solution', i ran out of solution brands to buy. if you are going through the same problem as i am, hereby i recommend you one. bought this and thought it is one of the best solution by far. but i can't promise you how long it will be on the market. it seems to me every brand that do well in the market get banned after a while, maybe there are some sales politic there. maybe, just maybe someone is trying to monopolise the market but couldn't so they keep creating problems for all these big shots.

even when you wake up with tired eyes, it doesn't hurt. seriously good.

2. i had a crave for this long long ago when i was in singapore. but i forgotten all about it since i came back. my little sister rediscover it for me when she brought this back last week.

sweet things keep you awake

3. this is really one of the best phone i ever have. it comes in handy in my car and in gym. looks good, nice interface and desperate to mention nice earpiece too.

who needs an ipod hehe.

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since i'm on it. these are 3 types of ppl you get to see in the gym:
1. pretty girls with tank top. they are there not to exercise, they just walk around and parade themselves. so pls look.
2. miss zouk that was dancing in the podium at zouk teaching the girls do dirty dancing (opps i mean latin mix, but honestly i don't see anything latin-ish in it). but it looks quite fun, maybe i should go for one of those class too, it might come in handy in the future if i can still shake. of course in such a scene, you see guys staring from outside the glass. some pretending to be on the phone, some trying to forget the tiring routine of cycling -- legs still cycling but eyes on her -- and of course some don't even bother to pretend they just sit there. yah just waiting for those moments she shakes her booty and bent down with her short skirt. oh, tight hot but.
3. this is the best part, you see some hunks once in a blue moon. i walked in and i remembered i saw him last week. i couldn't control myself so i forgotten to look away when he stared back. after i passed by, i remembered i forgotten to smile. so i told myself to do so if i have another chance. start off with my stretching and i saw him over my back doing his stretching before he goes off. couldn't do my smile thing since his back is facing me, so i went on my way to hit the machines. long after that, he passed by and he throwed me his smile. so i gently return his sweet gesture. muahahah so fun, feels like high school crush again.

a new experience

with my injured neck i went to shanghai. not expecting much because i already know the place i am about to shoot doesn't look very good. am not very excited as well because i also know i do not have any time left.

i arrived at the airport 5.50am, a bit anxious to meet the two people i am suppose to work with. hi hi... off we go. once we reached there, we went for a quick meal in kfc and to our first destination. the plant in shanghai. then for our dinner and to our next plant 5 hours from shanghai. huai an, a small town part of jiangsu. first day, so i tried to behave and not bring my mickey mouse camera out too much. but as usual i always travel with photographers. so here are a few just for the record.

© All rights reserved. photograph by henry.
this is part of work. testing the light :)

© All rights reserved. photograph by henry and finn.
it wasn't as bored as i thought. i actually got a chance to play pool in an open freezing area. look at the contrast. a pool table in the middle of nowhere. RMB0.50/game. how cool is that?

© All rights reserved. photograph by henry and finn.
my competitor. also my driver for this whole trip, xiao zhu.

© All rights reserved. photograph by henry and finn.
look behind. everyone is staring... i am pretty stress

© All rights reserved. photograph by henry and finn.
all the little kids there are so cute

© All rights reserved. photograph by henry and finn.
my photographer's favourite

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this too

© All rights reserved. photograph by henry and finn.
my famous red shoe

© All rights reserved. photograph by finn.
keep wanting to be in a photo :)

© All rights reserved. photograph by chaiyen.
one of the many nice restaurants

© All rights reserved. photograph by chaiyen.
the photographers actually think i shoot pretty good photos

© All rights reserved. photograph by chaiyen.
the charming photographer, henry

he said:
1. "finn, i am glad you came instead of james (his other assistant). if not i don't think he will be working, got such a pretty lady here."
2. "i like your art direction. i have to say you did a pretty good job considering you are so young. if i have job next time that requires an art director i will get you ok."
3. "i have this guy name X, i think he is very nice. but maybe Y is better, he got more character."

© All rights reserved. photograph by chaiyen.
assistant photographer, finn. cuteness is the word to describe her

she said:
1. "i have a bro same age with you, he wants to be a pastor. he attends city harvest. interested?"
2. "you are a libra? no wonder. scorpio and libra can be good friends i am one."
3. "i really like your photo angle."

© All rights reserved. photograph by chaiyen.
the local favourite

© All rights reserved. photograph by finn.
'kan' means bottoms up

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just for laugh:
1. he was checking into one room in shanghai because he extended his stay. the two of us followed him because we need to do some more product shoots. but we did wonder what other ppl will be thinking. one guy, two girls. then finn said "i know, i know. both of you are the main casts, i am the videographer and these are my equipments."
2. "i need to shower, you guys go ahead. i don't even need dinner" finn. i continued "what is this? you rather shower than to see shanghai. is that all you want to tell ppl. i bath in shanghai."
3. the client from china wanted us to bring a some stuff back for his niece. it was heavy and sealed very horribly in a ugly plastic bag. so i was teasing her. "hey, don't you want to check? what if there are drugs inside? you know those movies have it all the time." then walking pass the scanning machine. i quickly ran over first so that i can see from the tv what it is. she was already very embarrass with the bag till the immigration lady shouted loudly "zhe ke woh se sui de" (whose pot is this). everyone stared at her. and i just stand there laughing my heads off. the lady asked us what is inside and if she can open it. i said "go ahead, we also want to know what is inside". she opened it layers by layers. we were so amazed by the amount of things pack in there. later she taped it all back for us.

ok besides this. my conclusion, china ppl are just loud but they are extrodinary nice and hospitable ppl. even though we were suppose to be working for them, they were serving us like kings. you just need to know them and not walk on the street of shanghai to judge them. i didn't spent a single RMB or cents in this trip.

my neck on the other hand, it just got better and better. i have to say i am pretty surprised to feel so much better. from not being able to turn my head, to now just a slight pain at one particular weird angle. i believe it is really a miracle. it must be the prayer. thanks guys.

shanghai photos are on the way, haven't download them. after this trip, these two new friends of mine made me feel very good about myself. i have to say it is nice to have other ppl that see the beauty and strength in you once again.

life had been giving me surprises

1. i started prison break. if someone just let me know earlier the main guy is so good looking i would had started this series earlier. faint...



when i showed my mum this guy. she said "leng, quickly find your sis a guy, she had been looking at white now." (seems worried, haha)

2. i got a job to shanghai and huaian over the weekend. i was told, considered, agreed and comfirmed today. i was pretty excited until i look at the itinerary. i think the only thing i will see is the shanghai airport. but it is ok, i will take that as an experience. i will be art directing a shoot. meaning? doing nothing. i just make sure everyone looks good and step back so that i can see some good angles other ppl do not see.

3. i hurt my neck because i was doing sit up in a wrong posture, eventhough i reminded myself again and again to chin up and not use my neck.

if you see me now you will think that i am pretty holy because i am obeying this command.
"So be careful to do what the Lord your God has commanded you; do not turn aside to the right or to the left."

but you know what, i cannot look up as well.

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btw see what i found out about my name, yen. i thought that is quite interesting.

interesting

had been meeting one of my ex for a few days in a row cause i was working near him. we topped it up yesterday night over drink at laundry. among the more interesting lines.

from him:
"nope that girl is not pretty, you look better" (i call this smart)

"yahh meeting your ex again stirs emotions. even after so long, everytime i meet you i also will start thinking a little." "is it, i don't" cy. "you are senseless"

"so how is your relationship with Jesus?" "trying" cy. "i also felt that is the difference in you, not as good as before right?" (coming from a non believer)

as usual my very unique straight forward questions:
"so what do i score for my look now?"

"so when you broke off with me, i remember you still like me. so why didn't you go back after me?" (just curious)

"so does she still turn you on?... ok so it is not that bad."
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from the same guy

Love is like a rumor, everyone talks about it, but no one truly knows

joke of the day

funniest msn title i had ever seen in my life.

"true love is like a ghost, how often do you see one in your life."

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my goodness i am rotf.