we had a bgr session in cell this week. this is one thought which i think might be useful.
to kill another party feelings for you
to kill a girl feelings: tell her you will rather marry your best friend than her.
to kill a guy feelings: tell him he is such a good brother/friend.
other thoughts that spring up after that...
to kill feelings that you no longer want there
if you need to forget him: try developing feelings for another guy.
if you need to forget her: just hangout with your friends.
to avoid falling in love...
to him: dont focus on one guy, buzz different guys randomly when you know you start thinking of someone way too much.
to her: call her only when you run out of things to do, dont pick up her calls all the time and try not returning her calls.
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as much as i thought i dont mind falling in love, i think i am too cautious to allow myself to do so.
'The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much' grey's
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Friday, November 07, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
people
i just came back from my church young adults camp.
the fact that i am there is a miracle in itself. i had not been to camp for ages, especially one that needs to leave the compound of my church. over the years, i somehow get a bit fearful of this idea of going for one. i didnt feel like packing my bag and heart to go to a foreign place and be drown with a speaker i barely know and make conversation with a bunch of ppl that i probably wont talk to after that. i didnt want to go gambling again that i may or may not encounter God. i didnt want to weary myself with all the above and very often chose not to go at all.
but i dunno is it because a whole bunch of the committee are my friends and i want to be supportive, or was it a nudge from God. i signed myself up, i made arrangements to make sure my sis sleep with me, actually to even make sure she will be in my games group but i failed to arrange the latter. i went with preparation that it might be difficult. i confess that the logos word has not awaken much within me. i only scarcely feel the tangible presence of God, much probably due to my lack of sleep and expectations. but somehow or not, i enjoyed the camp.
1. the first night, when i cry and cry without knowing why. i wasnt even responding to the speaker. it might be the fact that i am finally making baby steps to be part of this bigger community, or the thought that God has gracefully pull me through till today, or maybe even the simple gratitude that i am still a believer after all this. didnt really care which of the above is the reason, but i reckon some process of healing must be taking place.
2. the good mix of old friends, new crazy friends and weirdo to blame for those many continuous tearful laughters and increase of wrinkles. to say hi, smile, make conversations and putting names to faces that i have seen many times in that big auditorium of my church unknowingly gives me great satisfaction.
3. the 2 nights sleeping with my sister, is believed to be more than the total up conversations we made in the beginning of this year. definitely loads of bonding including sharing bathrooms, yes we have not grew out of that. the many gossips ended up to be probably most valuable lessons i get -- observing how love changes one girl who is deeply in love, witnessing a marriage proposal (the beauty in the words and commitment of the one who ask for the hand), how a girl handle herself around her ex with his new girlfriend, and so on. hearing the many drama of lives open my eyes to why ppl behave they way they do
4. seeing God works in a camp not like the way He used to do so create a bitter sweet feeling. that God might has change the pattern of how He does things make me even more fearful to tread on ministry ground again.
5. overcoming the fear of attending a camp (or not), actually from i-dunno-anyone to liking my games group was way beyond what i expect, touching/transferring a whole box worms during my games time must be one of the most fear-factor-ish thing i had ever done.
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i seriously forgotten what crippled me, when all this fear creep into me but the last few days i seem to be making discovery. may i find the cause and find freedom to them.
the fact that i am there is a miracle in itself. i had not been to camp for ages, especially one that needs to leave the compound of my church. over the years, i somehow get a bit fearful of this idea of going for one. i didnt feel like packing my bag and heart to go to a foreign place and be drown with a speaker i barely know and make conversation with a bunch of ppl that i probably wont talk to after that. i didnt want to go gambling again that i may or may not encounter God. i didnt want to weary myself with all the above and very often chose not to go at all.
but i dunno is it because a whole bunch of the committee are my friends and i want to be supportive, or was it a nudge from God. i signed myself up, i made arrangements to make sure my sis sleep with me, actually to even make sure she will be in my games group but i failed to arrange the latter. i went with preparation that it might be difficult. i confess that the logos word has not awaken much within me. i only scarcely feel the tangible presence of God, much probably due to my lack of sleep and expectations. but somehow or not, i enjoyed the camp.
1. the first night, when i cry and cry without knowing why. i wasnt even responding to the speaker. it might be the fact that i am finally making baby steps to be part of this bigger community, or the thought that God has gracefully pull me through till today, or maybe even the simple gratitude that i am still a believer after all this. didnt really care which of the above is the reason, but i reckon some process of healing must be taking place.
2. the good mix of old friends, new crazy friends and weirdo to blame for those many continuous tearful laughters and increase of wrinkles. to say hi, smile, make conversations and putting names to faces that i have seen many times in that big auditorium of my church unknowingly gives me great satisfaction.
3. the 2 nights sleeping with my sister, is believed to be more than the total up conversations we made in the beginning of this year. definitely loads of bonding including sharing bathrooms, yes we have not grew out of that. the many gossips ended up to be probably most valuable lessons i get -- observing how love changes one girl who is deeply in love, witnessing a marriage proposal (the beauty in the words and commitment of the one who ask for the hand), how a girl handle herself around her ex with his new girlfriend, and so on. hearing the many drama of lives open my eyes to why ppl behave they way they do
4. seeing God works in a camp not like the way He used to do so create a bitter sweet feeling. that God might has change the pattern of how He does things make me even more fearful to tread on ministry ground again.
5. overcoming the fear of attending a camp (or not), actually from i-dunno-anyone to liking my games group was way beyond what i expect, touching/transferring a whole box worms during my games time must be one of the most fear-factor-ish thing i had ever done.
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i seriously forgotten what crippled me, when all this fear creep into me but the last few days i seem to be making discovery. may i find the cause and find freedom to them.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
dreaming part2
'it is a different room, a queen size bed this time. i am sleeping once again next to a guy, a different guy. not someone unfamiliar. my room door is left open, does mean i have nothing to hide but when i heard my dad's voice outside... i seem to mind my dad misunderstanding us since we are lying together. he didnt mind a bit, he actually wraps himself closer me. he said, "you really dont have even a little bit of feelings for me anymore?". i didnt answer him, i think that is bad.'
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i dream a lot about relationship recently, i swear i had not been thinking about this matter for a while and i definitely had not been watching grey's or any love drama lately. in both dreams, i was sleeping maybe means that im tired and i was too lazy to move around even in my dream hahaha. two with guys, i can recognise... shit, i hope it doesnt mean he is just around the corner and someone i know.
Friday, October 17, 2008
oh God, i love fridays
i cant tell you how much i love fridays nowadays. the rest of the days in the week are just like a warzone, fighting with deadlines ahead both work and class submission. miraculously i am pulling through beyond average in class, in fact close to doing well. im happy.
amid all that, i had been partying, picking up tennis with my friend's nintendo wii (hehe) and even made time for dvds. i am totally glad it is friday today, because for one evening in a week at least, i can sit down and do all those things above and not worry about tomorrow. clients are off for the weekend - they will not call or email me. no increase of job bags, only what i already have. i feel as if time freeze for a while to give me back the freedom to do anything i like.
since im in that topic i will share a dream that bugs me. a very short, nevertheless enough to make me sweat and jump off my bed despite the fact i only slept 5 hours prior to that. i dont remember ever having such experience before.
'woken up from my sleep because i saw a shadow of someone on my right. he is reclining on my pillow. i can see his face, and i dont seem surprise to see him next to me at all. in my tired voice, i whisper "something keeping you awake?". he couldnt hear clearly i guess, his face leans closer to me. at that very moment my heart starts beating. i freak out... yes his lips touches mine...'
i freak out that so badly, i woke up immediately. it is almost like, i need to end the dream right away kinda feeling. nope, not because of the kiss - i had done worst in my dreams - but it is because it is him. scary and freaky.
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wokie, im going try to pick up my books where i last left off and have an early night tonight. buai. oh yah one more, murni's boss, jackie is pregnant. super random but i took great measure to find out so i need to spread the news now.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
intimidated by the young
ppl say if u hang around with younger ppl you will feel younger. im not sure about that, but i dont have much of a choice. now in college and party, im almost surrounded with friends that are younger than me. but what the heck, i try to enjoy myself and put that aside. i reminded myself not to think too much because it just so often screw up my day and eventually my life. and you know what, they are really kinda fun. somehow life is so simple for them, unhurt, undamaged.
im kinda stress in class. students and lecturers have expectations from me. i repeatedly tell myself, "i just need to finish my work. i dont need to prove to anyone anything, im not here to be a top scorer." up to date i still refuse to use my money to bind any of my project submission, unashamedly i stapled them. using more money instead to buy my latte haha. i choose to believe that good work has nothing to do with all this outlook. yet i found myself staying awake to finish my assignments till wee hours of the morning. one night, i even found myself reprinting my work all over again and redoing the whole mock up. in the middle of that, i felt so stupid. "what a waste of time and ink". i hate it when the perfectionist part of me take over. the second mock up look worst than the first, but i wasnt ready to give more attention to that piece of work. so i just went to bed.
i used to believe whatever we do, do our best as to glorify God. i am not denying that but beginning to question if my motivation was that all this while. i realised that so often i want to do the best because i am just another insecure bitch. especially now in college, im not even there to score... the cert no longer matters to me. i need to keep my focus right, push myself to learn the most not work the hardest. except for that bit im enjoying class, learning a lot of new things, falling in love with design all over again.
im kinda stress in class. students and lecturers have expectations from me. i repeatedly tell myself, "i just need to finish my work. i dont need to prove to anyone anything, im not here to be a top scorer." up to date i still refuse to use my money to bind any of my project submission, unashamedly i stapled them. using more money instead to buy my latte haha. i choose to believe that good work has nothing to do with all this outlook. yet i found myself staying awake to finish my assignments till wee hours of the morning. one night, i even found myself reprinting my work all over again and redoing the whole mock up. in the middle of that, i felt so stupid. "what a waste of time and ink". i hate it when the perfectionist part of me take over. the second mock up look worst than the first, but i wasnt ready to give more attention to that piece of work. so i just went to bed.
i used to believe whatever we do, do our best as to glorify God. i am not denying that but beginning to question if my motivation was that all this while. i realised that so often i want to do the best because i am just another insecure bitch. especially now in college, im not even there to score... the cert no longer matters to me. i need to keep my focus right, push myself to learn the most not work the hardest. except for that bit im enjoying class, learning a lot of new things, falling in love with design all over again.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
my gym past time
i meet a lot of ppl in a week but i definitely dont see the same guy as much in a week other than him (besides my family). i noticed him a while back. i mean besides the point everyone in gym looks sweaty and not that great, it is hard not to notice a man with such great stature and nice shirts strolling around. yes i eavesdrop and really like his confident voice when he projects his voice.
i do a lot of cycling in the gym. how my machine is positioned, it is surely not very difficult for both our eyes to meet. i cannot deny i made the first move. i took a good look at him, long enough to make an impression. from that day on, i never did make much effort but im sure he noticed me. every now and then he will steal a look to check if im staring. if i notice that from the corner of my eyes, i will make sure i look up to make his day. it is an extremely fun thing to do in between my exercise. for me my interest for him doesnt strain me because i dont exactly feel anything for him more than a crush. i wont get disappointed if he doesnt like me. neither do i think of him throughout the week since i barely know him. having said that he has my boyfriend type of look so i had observe him for a while but i didnt exactly like what i saw. im not bias when i say the girls have their hands all over him, only on him and not any other dude in that gym.
since then, i dont give him as much attention as i did. instead i had been trying to push myself on my workout by doing more kilometres. he had not stop intentionally buzzing a lot around me though. it is totally so out of the blue that day when he changed from his formal working attire to shorts and t-shirt. didnt had much time to think about it before he plopped into a sit next to me. i swear there is still another sit after that which he didnt take. i dare to look from him from afar but seriously i was quite shy when he sat next to me. i dont really dare to look up. my heart was beating so fast, i wasnt sure it was him or the cycling. he didnt manage to stay long coz some smart ass GIRL decide to come and max his level. i told u the girls never leave him alone. he struggled for a while then left.
is that progress or what? i got so ons that night i couldnt stop. after cycling i did sit ups and i think i hurt my back again. hehe... i think i will give my body a break for a week and let him miss me a little. if you know him, pls dont tell me he is taken. dont tell him i wrote this and spare me the shame. dont burst my bubbles im enjoying this little entertainment in my gym :)
i do a lot of cycling in the gym. how my machine is positioned, it is surely not very difficult for both our eyes to meet. i cannot deny i made the first move. i took a good look at him, long enough to make an impression. from that day on, i never did make much effort but im sure he noticed me. every now and then he will steal a look to check if im staring. if i notice that from the corner of my eyes, i will make sure i look up to make his day. it is an extremely fun thing to do in between my exercise. for me my interest for him doesnt strain me because i dont exactly feel anything for him more than a crush. i wont get disappointed if he doesnt like me. neither do i think of him throughout the week since i barely know him. having said that he has my boyfriend type of look so i had observe him for a while but i didnt exactly like what i saw. im not bias when i say the girls have their hands all over him, only on him and not any other dude in that gym.
since then, i dont give him as much attention as i did. instead i had been trying to push myself on my workout by doing more kilometres. he had not stop intentionally buzzing a lot around me though. it is totally so out of the blue that day when he changed from his formal working attire to shorts and t-shirt. didnt had much time to think about it before he plopped into a sit next to me. i swear there is still another sit after that which he didnt take. i dare to look from him from afar but seriously i was quite shy when he sat next to me. i dont really dare to look up. my heart was beating so fast, i wasnt sure it was him or the cycling. he didnt manage to stay long coz some smart ass GIRL decide to come and max his level. i told u the girls never leave him alone. he struggled for a while then left.
is that progress or what? i got so ons that night i couldnt stop. after cycling i did sit ups and i think i hurt my back again. hehe... i think i will give my body a break for a week and let him miss me a little. if you know him, pls dont tell me he is taken. dont tell him i wrote this and spare me the shame. dont burst my bubbles im enjoying this little entertainment in my gym :)
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
everyone is hurt, so let's not do more damage
so we went for our first friendly date. one thing about publishing ppl we get free movies tickets like all the time. and you think that is great enough till he told me the car i was sitting on was his test drive car for the week. the perks for designing a car magazine.
i went to movie with him as i would with many other friends. it gets a bit freaky after the movie, his friend stopped by and said "bye, chaiyen we have to go first". i stared at my friend and ask him plainly "you bitch about me, your friend actually know my name?" and so to prove my point i know he is attached, i asked about his relationship. and of course the kepoh me checked his track records. 2 hands full including mine i meant. and so how come he can have 8 years relationship in between. you do the maths. it didn't take him long to tell me about his first love. she is dead. you think stories like this only happen in korean movies. all these high school gang fights thing. he was supposed to die instead of her. i quickly concluded "so you are looking for a girl to replace her?" "kind off, but i had never met one like her". 14 years have passed and some wound just doesnt close without a scar.
we all get hurt by someone, somewhere, somewhat. we get hurt by ppl that got hurt. and this has to stop somewhere. i mean it cant keep spreading like this. so sorry if i ever stand on the side of those victim mentality ppl. yes, they might have a long track records and i might not totally agree with moving from one relationship to another as a way out but i emphathised with them. some of them just go from one relationship to another looking for true love but in vain because they are not looking at the right place and right ppl. while some of them move from one relationship to another because they dont want to get serious and hurt anymore but they want company because loneliness reminds them of their old wound. and so the question how do you ever make a relationship works with ppl like this? well it takes someone that really love. it was love that started it and it will be love that will heal this kind of pain. but who would start it? no one want to take that risk. as usual the stubborn me am just trying to keep my stand. because we know in every relationship we are not only hurting others even though we think we can pretend we don't care, we know we do.
Brooke: How could you cheat on me with my best friend?
Lucas: Brooke, I never meant to hurt you.
Brooke: That doesn't really matter, Lucas. 'Cause in the end it all hurts just the same.
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im not coming from someone very much on top of it all. i have my moments, while mine is a little mild compare to changing one relationship to another. i confessed i had been flirting. as much as we want to stay out of falling in love, we like the feeling of being in love. it puts a smile on your face. flirting is a quick fix for that though you know none of them really meant what they say. though you dont feel for them, you still feel special having someone calls you 'sweetie'. some days you just reminisce the feelings of being in love and you miss having someone there, so at those day you just go out with your fella victim and kill each other loneliness. but i had been going out with quite a few ppl so that i dont get emotionally attach to one and i have been keeping my hands to myself so that i don't get burn. in days when im more sober, i remind them that they are great friends. remind them that they dont need to jump from one relationship to another. im a substitute. i keep ppl company till their right man or woman come along. till then i remind you, you are not alone and you are special. this bit i mean it.
i went to movie with him as i would with many other friends. it gets a bit freaky after the movie, his friend stopped by and said "bye, chaiyen we have to go first". i stared at my friend and ask him plainly "you bitch about me, your friend actually know my name?" and so to prove my point i know he is attached, i asked about his relationship. and of course the kepoh me checked his track records. 2 hands full including mine i meant. and so how come he can have 8 years relationship in between. you do the maths. it didn't take him long to tell me about his first love. she is dead. you think stories like this only happen in korean movies. all these high school gang fights thing. he was supposed to die instead of her. i quickly concluded "so you are looking for a girl to replace her?" "kind off, but i had never met one like her". 14 years have passed and some wound just doesnt close without a scar.
we all get hurt by someone, somewhere, somewhat. we get hurt by ppl that got hurt. and this has to stop somewhere. i mean it cant keep spreading like this. so sorry if i ever stand on the side of those victim mentality ppl. yes, they might have a long track records and i might not totally agree with moving from one relationship to another as a way out but i emphathised with them. some of them just go from one relationship to another looking for true love but in vain because they are not looking at the right place and right ppl. while some of them move from one relationship to another because they dont want to get serious and hurt anymore but they want company because loneliness reminds them of their old wound. and so the question how do you ever make a relationship works with ppl like this? well it takes someone that really love. it was love that started it and it will be love that will heal this kind of pain. but who would start it? no one want to take that risk. as usual the stubborn me am just trying to keep my stand. because we know in every relationship we are not only hurting others even though we think we can pretend we don't care, we know we do.
Brooke: How could you cheat on me with my best friend?
Lucas: Brooke, I never meant to hurt you.
Brooke: That doesn't really matter, Lucas. 'Cause in the end it all hurts just the same.
oth
im not coming from someone very much on top of it all. i have my moments, while mine is a little mild compare to changing one relationship to another. i confessed i had been flirting. as much as we want to stay out of falling in love, we like the feeling of being in love. it puts a smile on your face. flirting is a quick fix for that though you know none of them really meant what they say. though you dont feel for them, you still feel special having someone calls you 'sweetie'. some days you just reminisce the feelings of being in love and you miss having someone there, so at those day you just go out with your fella victim and kill each other loneliness. but i had been going out with quite a few ppl so that i dont get emotionally attach to one and i have been keeping my hands to myself so that i don't get burn. in days when im more sober, i remind them that they are great friends. remind them that they dont need to jump from one relationship to another. im a substitute. i keep ppl company till their right man or woman come along. till then i remind you, you are not alone and you are special. this bit i mean it.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
dejavu feeling cause unfair judgement
i met up with my college friends yesterday night. as usual they will go to this topic.
friend: are you still single?
cy: yup. erm... i was attached once after college if your still means since college days. hahaha
friend: surely got ppl going after you right since you are so hot? too caught up with work is it.
cy: nooo... i have social life ok. (yahh got ppl going after, but they are all of weird cases for eg...)
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i remembered when i first saw him i felt that like he looks like my 3rd ex bf. i did wonder if it is because he stared at me like he used too. the kind that keep glaring at you even when you look at him.
i kind of know it when he makes small talk unlike how other guys without motive do so. offering to drive me back eventhough i drove was quite funny. offering to fetch me back to work the next day to get my car would be giving him too many opportunities. though i was totally tempted to do so since i was dead tired doing OT that period and driving was definitely the last thing i want to do.
i never put much thought to it after my freelance job with that company was over. till i bummed into this guy a few months later right outside my gym where he got my contact in the name of "pass me your contact, i can pass you some freelance job if my friend ask for a writer". i laughed and answered him "im not a writer, im a designer". so he turned the story around and said he can passed me design job then.
i did not of course receive any jobs from him except for many invites to join him for gym and lunch. which i did not purposely avoid but our timing wasn't good so we never actually once met.
i couldnt believe why i bum into him every time i step into that office. whether it is me reversing my car or walking up the stairs. he must be somewhere around and following that will trigger him to SMS me again.
mostly, i never understand why he knows that i know he is attached (because his colleague loudly warned him not to flirt), yet still he thinks that he can get around me.
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i dont feel anything at all to him, but that was exactly how i felt for my ex too. he had proven he doesnt has the killer sweet lips which won my heart over like my ex since he is quite bad in even making a date happen, so i guess he will not do me any harm. because i was just wondering if i should be friends with him since im suspicious of his motive. but i shall give him the benefit of doubt maybe he was just being friendly. i definitely do not look like the kind of girl that can be your FWB (Friend With Benefit) despite knowing you has a gf, right? or i can just pretend to be busy the next time he calls since i have always been busy.
i hate dejavu feeling because it warns your heart to be cautious of ppl that has similar trade. and sometimes it is pretty unfair for eg they look alike. but sometimes you really can't help it.
experiences in your life does make you whether you like it or not.
friend: are you still single?
cy: yup. erm... i was attached once after college if your still means since college days. hahaha
friend: surely got ppl going after you right since you are so hot? too caught up with work is it.
cy: nooo... i have social life ok. (yahh got ppl going after, but they are all of weird cases for eg...)
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i remembered when i first saw him i felt that like he looks like my 3rd ex bf. i did wonder if it is because he stared at me like he used too. the kind that keep glaring at you even when you look at him.
i kind of know it when he makes small talk unlike how other guys without motive do so. offering to drive me back eventhough i drove was quite funny. offering to fetch me back to work the next day to get my car would be giving him too many opportunities. though i was totally tempted to do so since i was dead tired doing OT that period and driving was definitely the last thing i want to do.
i never put much thought to it after my freelance job with that company was over. till i bummed into this guy a few months later right outside my gym where he got my contact in the name of "pass me your contact, i can pass you some freelance job if my friend ask for a writer". i laughed and answered him "im not a writer, im a designer". so he turned the story around and said he can passed me design job then.
i did not of course receive any jobs from him except for many invites to join him for gym and lunch. which i did not purposely avoid but our timing wasn't good so we never actually once met.
i couldnt believe why i bum into him every time i step into that office. whether it is me reversing my car or walking up the stairs. he must be somewhere around and following that will trigger him to SMS me again.
mostly, i never understand why he knows that i know he is attached (because his colleague loudly warned him not to flirt), yet still he thinks that he can get around me.
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i dont feel anything at all to him, but that was exactly how i felt for my ex too. he had proven he doesnt has the killer sweet lips which won my heart over like my ex since he is quite bad in even making a date happen, so i guess he will not do me any harm. because i was just wondering if i should be friends with him since im suspicious of his motive. but i shall give him the benefit of doubt maybe he was just being friendly. i definitely do not look like the kind of girl that can be your FWB (Friend With Benefit) despite knowing you has a gf, right? or i can just pretend to be busy the next time he calls since i have always been busy.
i hate dejavu feeling because it warns your heart to be cautious of ppl that has similar trade. and sometimes it is pretty unfair for eg they look alike. but sometimes you really can't help it.
experiences in your life does make you whether you like it or not.
Monday, August 13, 2007
my dad is officially worried
1. my dad speed back from dinner so that the guy doesn't need to wait for me because he was already at my place waiting for me.
2. my dad told my sis not to be a light bulb because she said she wanted to watch rush hour too.
3. my dad asked me when i came back at midnight "never go for supper? only movies?"
ok, my dad is officially worried about me not getting attach. though i told him, it is just a friend. i don't think he believes.
2. my dad told my sis not to be a light bulb because she said she wanted to watch rush hour too.
3. my dad asked me when i came back at midnight "never go for supper? only movies?"
ok, my dad is officially worried about me not getting attach. though i told him, it is just a friend. i don't think he believes.
Friday, August 03, 2007
naive
and i say don't mess up with the players because you are not on par with them
don't think that you are too strong to fall for that because you just might fall for them
don't think that you are smart enough not to believe this is real because girls are just girls we are just naive
don't think even for one second that when you play with fire you won't get burn
and for one moment i suddenly realised i was missing something different.
and for one moment i was thinking maybe, just maybe the feelings was real.
only for one moment then i woke up, DON'T EVEN TRY think about it again.
STUPID
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"i show no pretense but if a girl wants to put me on a white horse that is up to her" the player from the movie someone like you.
to feel for two person at one point is possible. but feelings doesn't mean anything anyway, you can feel for someone when you wake up but before you go to sleep the feeling is gone. it comes uninvited, sometimes refuse to go. yah girls are naive, or maybe they just choose to be that.
itunes looping: let me let go by faith hill
don't think that you are too strong to fall for that because you just might fall for them
don't think that you are smart enough not to believe this is real because girls are just girls we are just naive
don't think even for one second that when you play with fire you won't get burn
and for one moment i suddenly realised i was missing something different.
and for one moment i was thinking maybe, just maybe the feelings was real.
only for one moment then i woke up, DON'T EVEN TRY think about it again.
STUPID
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"i show no pretense but if a girl wants to put me on a white horse that is up to her" the player from the movie someone like you.
to feel for two person at one point is possible. but feelings doesn't mean anything anyway, you can feel for someone when you wake up but before you go to sleep the feeling is gone. it comes uninvited, sometimes refuse to go. yah girls are naive, or maybe they just choose to be that.
itunes looping: let me let go by faith hill
Friday, June 29, 2007
all good things come in 3
3 good buys. brighten up your days during busy season like this:
1. due to the ever 'got problem solution', i ran out of solution brands to buy. if you are going through the same problem as i am, hereby i recommend you one. bought this and thought it is one of the best solution by far. but i can't promise you how long it will be on the market. it seems to me every brand that do well in the market get banned after a while, maybe there are some sales politic there. maybe, just maybe someone is trying to monopolise the market but couldn't so they keep creating problems for all these big shots.
even when you wake up with tired eyes, it doesn't hurt. seriously good.
2. i had a crave for this long long ago when i was in singapore. but i forgotten all about it since i came back. my little sister rediscover it for me when she brought this back last week.
sweet things keep you awake
3. this is really one of the best phone i ever have. it comes in handy in my car and in gym. looks good, nice interface and desperate to mention nice earpiece too.
who needs an ipod hehe.
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since i'm on it. these are 3 types of ppl you get to see in the gym:
1. pretty girls with tank top. they are there not to exercise, they just walk around and parade themselves. so pls look.
2. miss zouk that was dancing in the podium at zouk teaching the girls do dirty dancing (opps i mean latin mix, but honestly i don't see anything latin-ish in it). but it looks quite fun, maybe i should go for one of those class too, it might come in handy in the future if i can still shake. of course in such a scene, you see guys staring from outside the glass. some pretending to be on the phone, some trying to forget the tiring routine of cycling -- legs still cycling but eyes on her -- and of course some don't even bother to pretend they just sit there. yah just waiting for those moments she shakes her booty and bent down with her short skirt. oh, tight hot but.
3. this is the best part, you see some hunks once in a blue moon. i walked in and i remembered i saw him last week. i couldn't control myself so i forgotten to look away when he stared back. after i passed by, i remembered i forgotten to smile. so i told myself to do so if i have another chance. start off with my stretching and i saw him over my back doing his stretching before he goes off. couldn't do my smile thing since his back is facing me, so i went on my way to hit the machines. long after that, he passed by and he throwed me his smile. so i gently return his sweet gesture. muahahah so fun, feels like high school crush again.
1. due to the ever 'got problem solution', i ran out of solution brands to buy. if you are going through the same problem as i am, hereby i recommend you one. bought this and thought it is one of the best solution by far. but i can't promise you how long it will be on the market. it seems to me every brand that do well in the market get banned after a while, maybe there are some sales politic there. maybe, just maybe someone is trying to monopolise the market but couldn't so they keep creating problems for all these big shots.
even when you wake up with tired eyes, it doesn't hurt. seriously good.
2. i had a crave for this long long ago when i was in singapore. but i forgotten all about it since i came back. my little sister rediscover it for me when she brought this back last week.
sweet things keep you awake
3. this is really one of the best phone i ever have. it comes in handy in my car and in gym. looks good, nice interface and desperate to mention nice earpiece too.
who needs an ipod hehe.
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since i'm on it. these are 3 types of ppl you get to see in the gym:
1. pretty girls with tank top. they are there not to exercise, they just walk around and parade themselves. so pls look.
2. miss zouk that was dancing in the podium at zouk teaching the girls do dirty dancing (opps i mean latin mix, but honestly i don't see anything latin-ish in it). but it looks quite fun, maybe i should go for one of those class too, it might come in handy in the future if i can still shake. of course in such a scene, you see guys staring from outside the glass. some pretending to be on the phone, some trying to forget the tiring routine of cycling -- legs still cycling but eyes on her -- and of course some don't even bother to pretend they just sit there. yah just waiting for those moments she shakes her booty and bent down with her short skirt. oh, tight hot but.
3. this is the best part, you see some hunks once in a blue moon. i walked in and i remembered i saw him last week. i couldn't control myself so i forgotten to look away when he stared back. after i passed by, i remembered i forgotten to smile. so i told myself to do so if i have another chance. start off with my stretching and i saw him over my back doing his stretching before he goes off. couldn't do my smile thing since his back is facing me, so i went on my way to hit the machines. long after that, he passed by and he throwed me his smile. so i gently return his sweet gesture. muahahah so fun, feels like high school crush again.
Monday, June 18, 2007
manchester united 2 - liverpool 1
i saw this title on nst this morning. for a moment i was thinking, i thought all the leagues are over.
then i realised they are talking about our players weddings. now i know what they do during all the breaks. they make babies and have weddings.
then i realised they are talking about our players weddings. now i know what they do during all the breaks. they make babies and have weddings.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
shanghai
this is my favourite photo
show you a little bit more
aren't you amazed you can find ads everywhere?
i had kfc for most of my lunch. looks like kfc are more successful here. do you know what? they do not serve potato here - no french fries nor whipped potato. so sad
for dinner, we have very good food all the time. sorry i only have a few photos. i was busy eating at other time. one thing i learned. if you order white rice, it will come only after all the dishes are served. i reason, it is because they want to taste all the dishes first. man, they surely have passion in preparing and eating their food.
none of us thought that we will have time to go anywhere. but we were too good. henry said i am quick in making decisions and that speed up a lot of the work. so we had 2 hours left to have a quick dinner. he knows shanghai upside down, too many good places to go for such a short time. finally he decided to bring us to the most happening place in shanghai. according to him xin tian di is where the young people hangout for posh dinner and drinks.
the road name at xin tian di. better take a photo of it, in case i don't know how to get there next time
a simple restaurant in xin tian di. henry said it is a must try
this to settle my craving for meat
i hate my camera. i can't get any good shots at night
there are loads of this nice back lane around
henry said this is the wall where all the models come to take their fashion shoots
that is why i quickly take one too
sorry this is all you get. my camera is bad
even the pro can't handle my camera
i mean, i really need to get a new camera
nope i had not change my allegiant. coffee bean is just a nice place to take photo. look at this picture, i definitely had take the clearest night shot here, in front of starbucks. buckie should be proud of me
this photo is a proof, the pot was horribly packaged. hahaha
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he was rude but i was not that mad at him. he just need to apologise but i guess he went quite a distance when i find a bouquet of flowers with a note "hope you are feeling better :)" when i reached home. my question to him "feeling better? the neck or towards you?" anyway apology accepted and i guess since i complained about him, i'll do him justice by crediting him now.
Friday, March 16, 2007
be flattered, that's all don't feel any more
what did i do recently? i am attracting strangers. btw i think this photo is doing wonders. i got this on my friendster message yesterday.
Allow me to add you if interested into friendship.
Hear from you soon.
Have a good day
James
p/s Do you chat? MSN, skype or yahoo
*no, i don't chat on msn with ppl i don't know. anyway he doesn't has an image. so i doubt he looks good. ok i am evil! y should believe me now that you are an exception because i considered you under safe zone. my mentors' cell member ought to be a good boy haha.
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i didn't email this guy too. i mean if he is really sincere, he should had pass me his namecard. guys like that are big time player. they make sure you don't cling on to them and bother them at their office.
i learned that from a korean movie that exposed a life of a player. here are the rules to be a player:
1. never give them your contact no., only pager no. so that they can leave you message and not call you in future.
2. never let them know where you work or stay, to prevent their ex to cry and fuss at their doors
3. never date a girl more than 1 month, in case she gets too serious.
4. always tell them you love them, even at the point of break up. tell them you love them too much you need to let go for their sake. choose a good place to break up, because women will hope to leave their best impression to men on that day. for better memories apparently.
5. never answer their call or be friend again
from his last line to me, i reckon it is true. and you know what, i never hate him eventhough i see him with another girl the next day after we broke off. they sure do have their ways around girls.
Allow me to add you if interested into friendship.
Hear from you soon.
Have a good day
James
p/s Do you chat? MSN, skype or yahoo
*no, i don't chat on msn with ppl i don't know. anyway he doesn't has an image. so i doubt he looks good. ok i am evil! y should believe me now that you are an exception because i considered you under safe zone. my mentors' cell member ought to be a good boy haha.
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i didn't email this guy too. i mean if he is really sincere, he should had pass me his namecard. guys like that are big time player. they make sure you don't cling on to them and bother them at their office.
i learned that from a korean movie that exposed a life of a player. here are the rules to be a player:
1. never give them your contact no., only pager no. so that they can leave you message and not call you in future.
2. never let them know where you work or stay, to prevent their ex to cry and fuss at their doors
3. never date a girl more than 1 month, in case she gets too serious.
4. always tell them you love them, even at the point of break up. tell them you love them too much you need to let go for their sake. choose a good place to break up, because women will hope to leave their best impression to men on that day. for better memories apparently.
5. never answer their call or be friend again
from his last line to me, i reckon it is true. and you know what, i never hate him eventhough i see him with another girl the next day after we broke off. they sure do have their ways around girls.
Monday, March 12, 2007
51% single
is it my new tank top written '51% single'?
or ppl in centrepoint starbucks are extremely friendly?
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1. this quite well dressed up indian guy came in, looked at me and ask "is this table next to you taken?". which i answered "i guessed not." *smile*
2. then this chinese guy who was sitting on the right hand of mine before this came back to sit while i am packing to leave "going off?" to which i answered "ya, going for lunch. see you around".
3. then clearing my table, seeing i stood up this white guy walked over as well and asked the exact same question. that was quite sudden but i politely answered the same. i went back to my table to keep my laptop. he looked back and gave me another look. after a long while, i saw him again at the parking ticket paying machine. after he paid, he came back to pick up where we last end our conversation "so where are you doing lunch?" i was quite reluctant to answer but i just kept it short "hartamas" he told me he is going for a meeting at mid valley. bye. he took out a piece of paper from his pocket:
Hi, it be nice to maybe chat next time, my email is **** @hotmail.com. cheers.
hmm. did he write that for me, but didn't have the courage to pass it to me just now inside starbucks? or do he just pass paper like that to any girls haha. anyway all these kept me awake while downloading that painfully long files.
or ppl in centrepoint starbucks are extremely friendly?
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1. this quite well dressed up indian guy came in, looked at me and ask "is this table next to you taken?". which i answered "i guessed not." *smile*
2. then this chinese guy who was sitting on the right hand of mine before this came back to sit while i am packing to leave "going off?" to which i answered "ya, going for lunch. see you around".
3. then clearing my table, seeing i stood up this white guy walked over as well and asked the exact same question. that was quite sudden but i politely answered the same. i went back to my table to keep my laptop. he looked back and gave me another look. after a long while, i saw him again at the parking ticket paying machine. after he paid, he came back to pick up where we last end our conversation "so where are you doing lunch?" i was quite reluctant to answer but i just kept it short "hartamas" he told me he is going for a meeting at mid valley. bye. he took out a piece of paper from his pocket:
Hi, it be nice to maybe chat next time, my email is **** @hotmail.com. cheers.
hmm. did he write that for me, but didn't have the courage to pass it to me just now inside starbucks? or do he just pass paper like that to any girls haha. anyway all these kept me awake while downloading that painfully long files.
Monday, February 12, 2007
word study 4: pimpin
according to the urban dictionary
1. when somone is wearing nice clothes
2. to have the right clothes, in the right place, with the right hoes.
3. when someone is getting all the girls (guys)
4. a boy (girl) with alot of Girlfriends (boyfriends) that KNOW about each other and don't mind
5. thinkin outside the box. not havin so many gurls on hand thats not pimpin. so pimpin is just bein you and dont care wat other people think 'bout you!
am very curious what are you refering me to?
other recent nick names:
hot stuff
miss popular
Dr Love
the expert
guys magnet
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ok the secret is out.
i am amused by:
1. the amount of ppl that came up to ask me
2. most amused by x asking me is it y and y that is probably thinking i am going out with x
3. being me who hate to be misunderstood, found the joy of writing. writing on purpose to mislead and to cause the reader to want to know more :)
single emphasis' day plans
1.30pm: lunch with my ex editor, kelley
6.00pm: interview with josh's boss. that is why i am nervous.
7.00pm: i finally agreed going out with my cousin since he doesn't have a date. but i was kind enough to tell him, if you find a date last minute just tell me. i do have other girls to spent the night with.
somehow everyone is pushing their appointments to wednesday. either they are lonely they need to make themselves busy on that day or life just goes on as usual for them that day. i choose to think it is the latter.
one more joke
cy: is your boss single?
josh: yah
cy: oh... what if he ask me "on that night, actually let us do your interview over dinner?". is he like trying to look for a date on that day hahaha... ok just joking.
1. when somone is wearing nice clothes
2. to have the right clothes, in the right place, with the right hoes.
3. when someone is getting all the girls (guys)
4. a boy (girl) with alot of Girlfriends (boyfriends) that KNOW about each other and don't mind
5. thinkin outside the box. not havin so many gurls on hand thats not pimpin. so pimpin is just bein you and dont care wat other people think 'bout you!
am very curious what are you refering me to?
other recent nick names:
hot stuff
miss popular
Dr Love
the expert
guys magnet
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ok the secret is out.
i am amused by:
1. the amount of ppl that came up to ask me
2. most amused by x asking me is it y and y that is probably thinking i am going out with x
3. being me who hate to be misunderstood, found the joy of writing. writing on purpose to mislead and to cause the reader to want to know more :)
single emphasis' day plans
1.30pm: lunch with my ex editor, kelley
6.00pm: interview with josh's boss. that is why i am nervous.
7.00pm: i finally agreed going out with my cousin since he doesn't have a date. but i was kind enough to tell him, if you find a date last minute just tell me. i do have other girls to spent the night with.
somehow everyone is pushing their appointments to wednesday. either they are lonely they need to make themselves busy on that day or life just goes on as usual for them that day. i choose to think it is the latter.
one more joke
cy: is your boss single?
josh: yah
cy: oh... what if he ask me "on that night, actually let us do your interview over dinner?". is he like trying to look for a date on that day hahaha... ok just joking.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
someone is watching my back
p: why you never follow us go clubbing anymore?
cy: yah daniel, why you never bring me anymore?
d: erm, she is a good girl. i only bring her for movies and yam cha.
after that question, i made the second attempt to Loft with him again yesterday. yes, i enter the place like a VIP as usual as if i am walking on a red carpet cause this dear friend of mine knows everyone from the bouncers to the managers to the waiters. we sat at the very same table we sat the last time, according to him that table is his every weekend. right in the middle of the night he came over.
d: where did you go just now?
cy: i went to the loo.
d: next time you must tell me where you go. this kind of place is not as simple as you think it is. (ok now i feel like i am 16 years old). and if you don't like those guys touching you, stand away from them.
cy: yes, i already did. (ok now, i need to move even further cause that guy is walking to where i am. let me find a sit at the corner then. this is where it leads to another highlight* of the night)
d: that is why i don't want to bring you go clubbing. i am very worried for you, i need to keep looking out for you. don't think i am not watching, i can see every move of yours and every guy that come close to you.
i haven't even mention, the node i need from him to try the tequila shot, and how he stopped the guy that offered me the second shot. i think have not given him the title in vain. honestly not that he knows i gave him that title, not sure what more he will do if i do. i mean he is more protective of me than a bf hahaha.
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* another conversation with c. it is him that asked me the question from case 3. yes i did promise not to say i-am-not-ready again. but guess i gave my worst answer yesterday.
c: so why is d not the kind of guy.
cy: just not.
c: why? why? tell me why.
cy: erm... maybe i have someone in mind. (after i said that, i think 'shit'. why did i say that? was i just trying to stop him from asking? arghh whatever. i had said it, i am lazy to revert what i said.)
Friday, January 05, 2007
the last 12 days
241206
christmas eve. met three new friends from singapore. dinner at williams and countdown at laundry.
251206
after christmas service i went movie with daniel... can't believe he made me meet his parents for lunch but they were pretty cool so i am ok. with my new friends again for dinner at ss2 and luna bar at night. honestly the place is too beautiful. i really wonder why am i there with these two guys i hardly know. i mean i had a great night with them but i will make a trip back again when i find someone special. a place worthy to be shared with someone more than friends.
261206
with my new friends for dinner at dragon i, met more new friends. they bought the january female magazine because i am in it. yes i am in pg131!
271206
a meeting with fei meng. preparation for her wedding.
281206
sat in a office the whole day to print all the paperwork for fei meng's wedding.
291206
met some of my kids at one u. did my free spa manicure, very nice place. quickly packed and rushed to malacca for fei meng's pre wedding dinner.
301206
very fun 'chip san leong' (translation=picking up the bride) ceremony. followed by a whole day of liaising with the hotel and rehersals for dinner. a lot, a lot of yam sengs at night.
311206
john's open house. his friends said his room is the kind of room girls will die to be his gf, i have to agree with that haha. poppy for countdown with my cousin and friends.
010107
angie and ashley's wedding. at a very nice place where i had my fiagra experience.
020107
took a lift from my cousin to singapore. met a lot of ppl for dinner. i am always amazed by the amount of ppl that turned up eventhough it is last minute. welcomed by a beautiful bouquet of flower by steph sung. howe and shirley gave me a lift back, you know it is always a good time to remind me how special i am. found out that i had someone top up my hp credit so that he can call me. stayed over at elaine's place and had a bit more talking with her over the night.
030107
collected my passport. renewed my posb bank book. went to take a look at my cousin's house. bumped into my ex editor while looking for her house so i sat down and had a drink. went to true spa for foot reflex, courtesy of alvin. a meal with him before he gave me a lift to kranji. talk about being a princess for a day you know singapore is the place.
040107
met justin for movie.
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there must be a reason why my voice is not back yet... too many yam sengs and countdowns. had been playing this song on my itunes again and again since i know it from the preparation for fei meng and chak leong's wedding. you must be wondering why do someone play such a song for a wedding but then again maybe this song has a special meaning to them. of course it is not the key song, just one that caught my attention. they were in a relationship for 10 years before they broke off. he kind of had enough of her but came back because he felt that he can't go on without her so he proposed. she must be tough at times but he loves her. so the wedding was pretty touching for some of us that had seen them together since high school.
for your pleasure, listen to the lyrics line by line :)
here is the lyrics.
christmas eve. met three new friends from singapore. dinner at williams and countdown at laundry.
251206
after christmas service i went movie with daniel... can't believe he made me meet his parents for lunch but they were pretty cool so i am ok. with my new friends again for dinner at ss2 and luna bar at night. honestly the place is too beautiful. i really wonder why am i there with these two guys i hardly know. i mean i had a great night with them but i will make a trip back again when i find someone special. a place worthy to be shared with someone more than friends.
261206
with my new friends for dinner at dragon i, met more new friends. they bought the january female magazine because i am in it. yes i am in pg131!
271206
a meeting with fei meng. preparation for her wedding.
281206
sat in a office the whole day to print all the paperwork for fei meng's wedding.
291206
met some of my kids at one u. did my free spa manicure, very nice place. quickly packed and rushed to malacca for fei meng's pre wedding dinner.
301206
very fun 'chip san leong' (translation=picking up the bride) ceremony. followed by a whole day of liaising with the hotel and rehersals for dinner. a lot, a lot of yam sengs at night.
311206
john's open house. his friends said his room is the kind of room girls will die to be his gf, i have to agree with that haha. poppy for countdown with my cousin and friends.
010107
angie and ashley's wedding. at a very nice place where i had my fiagra experience.
020107
took a lift from my cousin to singapore. met a lot of ppl for dinner. i am always amazed by the amount of ppl that turned up eventhough it is last minute. welcomed by a beautiful bouquet of flower by steph sung. howe and shirley gave me a lift back, you know it is always a good time to remind me how special i am. found out that i had someone top up my hp credit so that he can call me. stayed over at elaine's place and had a bit more talking with her over the night.
030107
collected my passport. renewed my posb bank book. went to take a look at my cousin's house. bumped into my ex editor while looking for her house so i sat down and had a drink. went to true spa for foot reflex, courtesy of alvin. a meal with him before he gave me a lift to kranji. talk about being a princess for a day you know singapore is the place.
040107
met justin for movie.
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there must be a reason why my voice is not back yet... too many yam sengs and countdowns. had been playing this song on my itunes again and again since i know it from the preparation for fei meng and chak leong's wedding. you must be wondering why do someone play such a song for a wedding but then again maybe this song has a special meaning to them. of course it is not the key song, just one that caught my attention. they were in a relationship for 10 years before they broke off. he kind of had enough of her but came back because he felt that he can't go on without her so he proposed. she must be tough at times but he loves her. so the wedding was pretty touching for some of us that had seen them together since high school.
for your pleasure, listen to the lyrics line by line :)
here is the lyrics.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
that was really nice but don't like me
man: i know i will never be the person inside your heart. i just want to love you and be there for you. i am really happy for you if you can be with that someone you love and hopefully loves you the same too. if he hurt or fail you, remember you can always call me. you will always have a place inside my heart.
woman: i will never accept him, but that is the sweetest thing a person ever said and honestly i feel really secure because i know no matter what happen i have a special place in someone's heart. isn't that what every girl long for? but then of course we are a bit picky. we just want a place in that someone's heart.
CASE 1
cy: don't like me. i am not ready for a relationship and i do not want to be in a long distance relationship.
y: thanks for telling me dat!!! now that i talk to u so often on the msn... honestly do you think i have any motive talking to you?
cy: i would like to think no but i am sure you come online more than you used to
y: yes, i do. in all sincerity... i really do enjoy talking to u. i mean its really strange. btw i like challenge, i like hard to get girls :)
CASE 2
a: i lost a lot of weight already, give me a few more months i will have the body of your ex bf.
cy: no, pls don't try. don't work out for me, work out for yourself.
CASE 3
c: do you need him to be a christian if he (d) wants to court you?
cy: (i look at d) no, i won't be with him in the first place.
d: *laughed*
i had been going out with a lot of people and probably some girls will scold me for being stupid for saying any of the above... "why do you burn your own bridges, no harm having guys go after you" or "why ru so picky? he has got everything the look and the money." i had told them not to waste their time, i mean remember guys only talk when they are interested. i am happy to be your friends. of course if you still want to like me, i am honoured to be your choice. to be honest, it does feel good to be desired again eventhough i don't intend to jump into any now. i do enjoyed being fetched around, not paying for anything the whole night, and getting all the attention. i mean i am a girl after all :)
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TIPS: for girls that are looking for good man.
1. y is a really nice guy. romantic both with words and action. i would say he has his ways around girls.
2. a can do anything for you, even if it means going to the gym... i am sure he will do a lot more. surely a gentleman.
3. d is a gentleman, good looking and big time in his career.
DISCLAIMER: i would like to think that none of them had any motives for treating me nice. i just want to caution them not to even start thinking since they are such nice guys.
A SECRET: "i am not ready" is such a good excuse for turning a guy down. honestly, i might suddenly be ready when i meet the right guy haha.
woman: i will never accept him, but that is the sweetest thing a person ever said and honestly i feel really secure because i know no matter what happen i have a special place in someone's heart. isn't that what every girl long for? but then of course we are a bit picky. we just want a place in that someone's heart.
CASE 1
cy: don't like me. i am not ready for a relationship and i do not want to be in a long distance relationship.
y: thanks for telling me dat!!! now that i talk to u so often on the msn... honestly do you think i have any motive talking to you?
cy: i would like to think no but i am sure you come online more than you used to
y: yes, i do. in all sincerity... i really do enjoy talking to u. i mean its really strange. btw i like challenge, i like hard to get girls :)
CASE 2
a: i lost a lot of weight already, give me a few more months i will have the body of your ex bf.
cy: no, pls don't try. don't work out for me, work out for yourself.
CASE 3
c: do you need him to be a christian if he (d) wants to court you?
cy: (i look at d) no, i won't be with him in the first place.
d: *laughed*
i had been going out with a lot of people and probably some girls will scold me for being stupid for saying any of the above... "why do you burn your own bridges, no harm having guys go after you" or "why ru so picky? he has got everything the look and the money." i had told them not to waste their time, i mean remember guys only talk when they are interested. i am happy to be your friends. of course if you still want to like me, i am honoured to be your choice. to be honest, it does feel good to be desired again eventhough i don't intend to jump into any now. i do enjoyed being fetched around, not paying for anything the whole night, and getting all the attention. i mean i am a girl after all :)
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TIPS: for girls that are looking for good man.
1. y is a really nice guy. romantic both with words and action. i would say he has his ways around girls.
2. a can do anything for you, even if it means going to the gym... i am sure he will do a lot more. surely a gentleman.
3. d is a gentleman, good looking and big time in his career.
DISCLAIMER: i would like to think that none of them had any motives for treating me nice. i just want to caution them not to even start thinking since they are such nice guys.
A SECRET: "i am not ready" is such a good excuse for turning a guy down. honestly, i might suddenly be ready when i meet the right guy haha.
Monday, November 27, 2006
the world greatest thing, love
"You spend your life searching for greatness," Emily said, handing over the ring in the velvet box it came in. "You're reaching for things I can't give you and I don't want to spend my life not measuring up."
"But I love you," he said. "I really do." Her decision made no sense. By his count, their 4-year engagement hadn't even come close to the world record, 67 years, held by Octavio Guilen and Adriana Mart'nez of Mexico City.
Emily smiled, her lips a bit crooked. "You know everything about the fastest coconut tree climber and the biggest broccoli, but you don't know the first thing about love." She wiped a tear from her ocean-colored eyes. "That's the only kind of greatness that counts, and I hope you find it someday."
Excerpted from The Man Who Ate the 747 by Ben Sherwood Copyright© 2000 by Ben Sherwood.
J. J. Smith, Keeper of the Records for The Book of Records, is an ordinary man. he knows he can never break a world record so he sets to be one that judge them. J.J. has clocked the world’s longest continuous kiss. He has verified the lengthiest single unbroken apple peel. He has tasted the world’s largest menu item. But J.J. has never witnessed great love.
Love is not a feeling he claimed. "it is brain chemistry. you see a pretty girl and you get a blast of neurotransmitter called dopamine. that's why you feel excited. same with happiness. it's just electrical impulse from your left prefrontal cortex." Wally, the man that is eating the 747 plane to prove his love has no doubt that his left prefrontal cortex was spinning, but he was also sure that the impulse came straight from the heart. the man from the book of records know his science, but he didn't know beans about love.
J.J feared to admit those feelings and walked away. then he comes to understand that the world greatest thing, love cannot be measured and quatified. this time he is not going to reason scientifically anymore. but she is afraid to love him again and get hurt. "Give me another shot. let's make one perfect day," J.J. "and if it feels right, let's make another one tomorrow." that reminds me of the movie 50 first dates.
"you don't love me today," the wife told him, in the movie the prestige. fact is feelings do matter. it is not how many times you say i love you that day or how many hours you sit by her side but how much you want her that makes all the different and yes, she can feel it.
i did tears eventhough i told him* i don't normally cry reading a book. this might be just a novel, this other story** is real though. life can be quite beautiful, if you allowed yourself to be loved and to love.
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*we said our first hello on msn. he is a guy that i haven't meet before though we have some common friends. when i showed him this list, he said he had done most of it. i wasn't quite sure then till the man who ate the 747 by Ben Sherwood arrived in my mailbox. i mean how often do you get mail, what more from someone you haven't even meet. that is really sweet, i don't know who thought him that :)
**taken from y's blog
"But I love you," he said. "I really do." Her decision made no sense. By his count, their 4-year engagement hadn't even come close to the world record, 67 years, held by Octavio Guilen and Adriana Mart'nez of Mexico City.
Emily smiled, her lips a bit crooked. "You know everything about the fastest coconut tree climber and the biggest broccoli, but you don't know the first thing about love." She wiped a tear from her ocean-colored eyes. "That's the only kind of greatness that counts, and I hope you find it someday."
Excerpted from The Man Who Ate the 747 by Ben Sherwood Copyright© 2000 by Ben Sherwood.
J. J. Smith, Keeper of the Records for The Book of Records, is an ordinary man. he knows he can never break a world record so he sets to be one that judge them. J.J. has clocked the world’s longest continuous kiss. He has verified the lengthiest single unbroken apple peel. He has tasted the world’s largest menu item. But J.J. has never witnessed great love.
Love is not a feeling he claimed. "it is brain chemistry. you see a pretty girl and you get a blast of neurotransmitter called dopamine. that's why you feel excited. same with happiness. it's just electrical impulse from your left prefrontal cortex." Wally, the man that is eating the 747 plane to prove his love has no doubt that his left prefrontal cortex was spinning, but he was also sure that the impulse came straight from the heart. the man from the book of records know his science, but he didn't know beans about love.
J.J feared to admit those feelings and walked away. then he comes to understand that the world greatest thing, love cannot be measured and quatified. this time he is not going to reason scientifically anymore. but she is afraid to love him again and get hurt. "Give me another shot. let's make one perfect day," J.J. "and if it feels right, let's make another one tomorrow." that reminds me of the movie 50 first dates.
"you don't love me today," the wife told him, in the movie the prestige. fact is feelings do matter. it is not how many times you say i love you that day or how many hours you sit by her side but how much you want her that makes all the different and yes, she can feel it.
i did tears eventhough i told him* i don't normally cry reading a book. this might be just a novel, this other story** is real though. life can be quite beautiful, if you allowed yourself to be loved and to love.
---
*we said our first hello on msn. he is a guy that i haven't meet before though we have some common friends. when i showed him this list, he said he had done most of it. i wasn't quite sure then till the man who ate the 747 by Ben Sherwood arrived in my mailbox. i mean how often do you get mail, what more from someone you haven't even meet. that is really sweet, i don't know who thought him that :)
**taken from y's blog
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