it's toxic

i did my substitute job today.

he is super down, the girl isnt responding i suppose. i didnt ask much, "it's complicated" was enough nowadays to keep me quiet.

so we are not going to talk about it and i fully understand that because sometimes talking about it makes you double more miserable than you already are. so the best place is the cinema. i company him for a movie (helping him kill time) which is like he companying me for a movie (cause i wanted to watch 27 dresses). so it is a win win situation.

after the whole movie. im down. is it the movie about her always a bridesmaid but never the bride. or is it the younger sister getting married first. or is it liking a guy for the longest time and seeing him get married. or was it me sharing my friend burden. maybe it is all that.

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it is fine. i like being emo. grey's tonight

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need." meredith, grey's