bye sam, i am leaving before you

after this entry i was really thinking hard that night. i need to earn quick money - for my new Macbook, wanderlust, bills and new indulgence. i woke up 6am in the morning and typed a few emails to my contact in singapore.

i was prepared to stay there and packed in as many jobs in the next few months. shirley did asked me to go back to singapore to work last year. she said the new environment will be good for me but i wasn't ready to go. i guess it is true i was holding on to some hope that things might get better if i stay. i was wrong and probably it would had been better if i had not.

anyway these are some of the reasons why i am willing to go now:
1. it makes no different if i am here or not. i talk to ppl mostly on msn. those ppl that i don't meet, they won't notice i am away anyway. at least i feel better that it is not that ppl didn't call, it is they cannot contact me.
2. i am not passionate about the things that brought me back to kl anymore.
3. i kind of miss the thrills of staying up late and working my ass off. being pushed to deliver and staying in the office till late nights. yes call me workacholic... i need to feel young again.
4. sam, my dvd series companion will be leaving for his further studies. steph, my best company is happily attach.
5. ... i want to be lost in that city for a while.

so here is my last week in kl, i am going back to my homeland. will be back probably by chinese new year. sometimes i think i am pretty cool when i make abrupt departure like that.


while most photographers want me to poss for nice pretty photos, i just want to take some wild cool photos haha. yah i think i look cool up there :)