become

be·come
to come into being/to live/to exist

a humdrum life we have and it is easy assume that God stop looking at us. most likely we had sin or perhaps HE is busy with other ppl or should we justify it by saying HE is teaching us to wait. we cling on to verses like this, hoping that we can get some kind of strength to refresh us to keep us going.

But those who wait upon God get fresh strength
They spread their wings and soar like eagles
they run and dont get tired
they walk and dont lag behind.

we skim through these lines that comes before that.

Why would you ever complain, O Jacob
or whine, Israel, saying,
"God has lost track of me.
He doesnt care what happens to me"?
Dont you know anything? Havent you been listening?
God doesnt come and go. God lasts.
He's Creator of all you can see or imagine.
He doesnt get tired out, doesnt pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out.

we so easily get tired of our life, especially when the cycle in life just keeps repeating itself. we think that HE easily quit just like we do. maybe it is easier to assume that HE stops working so that we can have a breeze. than to imagine Him allowing everything that we dont really like take place; or busy planning things that are about to happen which we are not ready to face. it is straining to think that He is trying to coincide all our stories together. it is too much for our tiny brain so we quit surveying who HE is. that is when our reason of being becomes faint. for it is in knowing HIM that we become. to recognise that we are living today not waiting for a plan, we are living in one waiting for it to be revealed.

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today, there is a strong desire to live.