emotional

i had plans lined up the whole day so i cant sent her off to the airport. but i know no matter what, i need to drop by to give her a hug. she was the ever consistent figure since day 1 i stepped into church.

she faithfully fetch all of us early in the morning to church.
she was also the one that guide me through my christian foundations patiently.
she gave me the guidance and the room to do the many things i was passionate about.
she is one of the few which i believe never misread my intentions.

she is my cell leader, my pastor and my friend.

i didn't say much because i don't know where to start or what to say. i just gave her a hug and jokingly continued 'kay, you grow up already... you are leaving the country'. she immediately start laughing and crying all at the same time. i just smile helding up the emotions. she had done very well recently getting us girls to meet up again. and honestly i really fear for a moment without her around if we will still. anyway the whole 10 mins thing by the roadside was just pure emotional...
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then i went to meet a friend that i used to be really close with. the whole journey driving there, loads of bitter sweet memories flooded my mind. but i refused to think more about it and i just prayed for the best out of it because chances like this doesnt come by often.

so there i was at bsc and behold im surrounded by big framed up 1957 new straits times. i just can't help but read from one to another.


the words were so magical... so not-like-our-boring-formal-newspapers-today.


i'm sure he knows God. 'In the name of God, the compassionate, the merciful. praise be to God, the Lord of the Universe and may the blessings and peace of God be upon his messengers.'


a humble man 'In the name of God, the compassionate, the merciful, Tunku Abdul Rahman.., Prime Minister of the Persekutuan Tanah Melayu, with the concurrence and approval of Their Highnesses the Rulers of the Malay States do hereby proclaim and declare on behalf of the ppl of the Persekutuan Tnaha Melayu that as from the thirty first day of August, nineteen hundred and fifty seven, the Tanay Melayu comprising the States of Johore, Pahang, Negri Sembilan, Selangor, Kedah, Perlis, Kelantan Trengganu, Perak, Malacca and Penang is and with God's blessing shall be for ever a sovereign democratic and independent State founded upon the principles of the liberty and justice and ever seeking the welfare and happiness of its ppl and the maintenance of a just peace among all nations.'


as a singaporean, i do not know what to say.

after reading up a few i felt overwhelmed putting myself in the shoes of those present on that day. i have every right to fell that God really orchestrated malaysia independence day. whether it is the God fearing man tunku abdul rahman or the prayers of the early missionaries. it must had been a beautiful moment to live to see that day come.

there was this ad that goes... "Txxxd tie, the tie for the day (this historical day)." it makes me feel like it was really a long awaited day. and eventhough the ppl might not have much money, they still might just use the little they have to buy a tie for this big occassion. and so i went on a guilt trip for treating the day as another public holiday but at least at the end i felt really thankful for this country and our forefathers.

anyway the brunch turned up really good. it is only about 1.30pm. i think it is enough for the day. over emotional day.